Also. Once I post the new podcast for last Sunday, you should listen to it. It kind of speaks to…hmmm…hopelessness, I guess. Which I think is something I’ve felt in a small way since graduation, too (we’ve talked about that a lot)..with work…relationships….school…..FUTURE stuff….

Anyways.

I think there is something to be said, too, about knowing that this life is never going to be enough, and never going to fill us up, or feel quite right. I’ve been hearing the phrase “develop a holy discontentment” lately. I want to better understand what that means. But I think it has to do with knowing this life cant be enough, while also realizing that one day we’re going to have everything we need.

Its a tough subject for me, because I want to feel full, and happy, and I want life to play out a specific way..but then older (probably wiser) people tell me that life isn’t going to be enough, and I don’t want to accept that…but……I don’t know? I think I understand the answer, but I think I also don’t want to. Or maybe I still don’t understand.

I love that, Rach. What would it look like for me to be on call for….my employees? my family? the customers that come into our coffee shop?

A lot of times I see their problems or even THEM as an interruption. But hello! They ARE the purpose! Loving others, being selfless….I feel like I’ve been WAITING for something since college ended. But God wants us to be LIVING and LOVING wherever we find ourselves, whether thats White Lake, in a little Biggby Coffee shop, or Chicago, in a musical, or in class learning about literature, or at home with your family.